Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I have become...

...one of those people who watches American Idol.

I felt the need to make this confession public.

I don't watch it every week. But golly, it truly is entertaining.

I needed a quote I had pasted in an old journal today. I found the quote, and I read some other things too. Got caught up in my senior year of college--the last month of pain and wonder and hoping for the future like a crazy child. It's good to read what happened two years ago, because it reminds me that God is big. I have clung to His promises, and He has proved true. I need reminding of that.

I'm very discouraged about teaching. We have three days left until Spring Break. I cannot, for the life of me, remember why I wanted to do this teaching gig. I get so stressed about school that I get these awful headaches, and then I start to think that I am having a brain aneurism. (That's another big confession for public viewing.) But God is TRUE. The enemy wants to distract us from truth. His aim is to shrink our scope down to a tiny, tiny hole, a hole that is focused on ourselves and our miserable lot. Isaiah 26:3 is TRUTH. Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee. In the Lord's grace, He is teaching me to "stay" my mind this week.

I want to share the quote that sparked my journal perusal today. It's from the writings of Jim Elliot. May God light a holy fire under us.

"We are so utterly ordinary, so commonplace, while we profess to know a Power the 20th century does not reckon with. But we are harmless and therefore unharmed. We are spiritual pacifists, non-militants, conscientious objectors in this battle to the death with principalities and powers in high places...We are 'sideliners'--coaching and criticizing the real wrestlers while content to sit by and leave the enemies of God unchallenged. The world cannot hate us--we are too much like its own. Oh that God would make us dangerous!"

From American Idol to Jim Elliot. There's my full circle tonight.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Amar bondhu

Do you remember Sheila, my Kolkata roommate and dear friend? Saturday she came to B-town, where we had our first reunion since we parted ways in December 2007. 13 months is a long time, but the time felt...pshaw...like nothing. It was so good to reconnect with her. We drank coffee, reveling in the multiple cups we could have, remembering the India where real coffee was "not possible." I showed her Bolivar and tried on my wedding dress for her. We talked about October, when she will move to Kolkata for three years instead of four months. I love Sheila and her brave heart. I love how when she feels led to something, she goes after it full force. I love that she is a nurse, and that is a good match for me when I start to be a hypochondriac. :) Thanks, Rooms. Thanks for coming to see me.

We managed to get only one picture together, which was this morning at 6:00 am, right before she left. Neither of us were looking our Sunday best, so I will just post this happy memory from Darjeeling, September 2007. We're having "high tea" along with Jodi, our teammate. (Miss you too, Jode!)