Thursday, August 7, 2008

"I will be with thee"

I hate worry. It is a choking vine, and today, it threatens to use my body as a trellis, wrapping itself up around my legs and torso, stretching out to cover my arms. It is barely 8:30 here in CST, and I have been awake for less than two hours. Yet already the litany has begun. Fears resonating within me, the same ones I bore yesterday, the same ones I laid down at the feet of the Father yesterday.

I will lay them again today.

-The future. That I will be hurt. That I will not know where to go or what to do or with whom to do it. I proclaim that I trust you to write the story. I trust you to guide my heart.
Psalm 138:8: The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever—do not abandon the work of your hands.

-Money. That I will not have enough. That it will run out before I get paid in September. That I won’t be able to save enough, and I will not be provided for. I proclaim that you are the Giver. I proclaim that you are the Provider.
Matthew 6:25: Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear…your Heavenly Father knows what you need.

-Not being ready for school. That school will start and I will not know what to do and I will be an awful teacher.
Hebrews 13: 20: May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever.
2 Cor 9:8: And God is able to make all grace abound to you at all times, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.

My life belongs to the One on high. Isaiah says He lives forever and His name is Holy. He dwells in the high and lofty place, but, wonder of wonders, He also promises to live with the one who has a contrite heart. God far-away and God near. The same. He spins the earth, but He sees the sparrow fall.

He sees me.

He sees you.

Nothing is beyond Him.

"All through the Old Testament the Lord's one universal answer to all the fears and anxieties of the children of Israel was the simple words, 'I will be with thee.' His presence was to them a perfect guarantee that all their needs would be may say, 'Ah, yes, if the Lord would only say the same thing to me, I should not be afraid either.' Well, He has said it, and has said it in unmistakable terms. When the angel of the Lord announced to Joseph the coming birth of Christ, he said: 'They shall call His name Emmanuel, which being interpreted is, God with us.'

-Hannah Whitall Smith


  1. i know i just sent you a record setting email...but i just had to say "amen" on all you had to say. And thanks for citing truth.

  2. Lara, about the same time you were writing yesterday I was reading this:
    "The terrible thing, the almost impossible thing, is to hand over your whole self - all your wishes and precautions - to Christ... that is why the real problem of the Christian life comes where people do not usually look for it. It comes the very moment you wake up each morning. All your wishes and hopes for the day rush at you like wild animals. And the first job each morning consists simply in shoving them all back: in listening to that other voice, taking that other point of view, letting that other larger, stronger, quieter life come flowing in. And so on, all day. Standing back from all your natural fussings and frettings; coming in out of the wind.
    So yes, thanks for the encouragement it is that the Spirit is working in your heart to speak truth and love and peace. Thanks for being faithful to come in out of the wind.

  3. thanks, friend. it's hard to see that forest (I will be with thee) through the trees sometimes. i identify with you especially in the teaching preoccupation, but it's his work, not our own.

  4. Refreshing sweetness to read, Lara.

    Echoes from a Puritan prayer:
    "May the truth that is in him
    illuminate in me all that is dark,
    establish in me all that is wavering,
    comfort in me all that is wretched,
    accomplish in me all that is of thy goodness,
    and glorify in me the name of Jesus"
    P.S. I love that H.W.Smith. Can't wait to meet her someday!

    LOVE and MISS you!